have you ever lie to me?
your tumblr says it all.
i didnt knew you had a tumblr you are quite close with him eh.
did i stop you from going out with anyone at all ?
it seems that there is things going on eh.

goodbye.

Well, it seems like you've move on. You've found someone you love once again. Maybe he's the perfect one for you. I've lost my pride and dignity for you. I've Nothing else to lose anymore. Congrats to your new beginning once again. All I hope and wish for is you to think of me once in awhile. I Still love you. I really do.

Imma gonna put on a mask infront of everything to hide from the fact the will never change which is I will still love you forever and we will get married on the age of 25. I promise . Youre dumb if you I won't love you anymore . I don't want this agony to be with us for this few years . I will ask for your hand on 8th April 2018. Trust me on this . I will LOVE you no matter what happens. Because Youre the perfect women in my life (:

Sorry. I didn't know that you've suffered that much for me. I Love You JoanTayJiaXin, i really do. Past 3 months of pains and sorrows you've suffered for me was a wake up call for me when you told me you wanted a break, a break for me and this relationship. It may seem that i dont bother at times but i do. I really do. We made a pact of getting married at the age of 25 and i swore that we will and i will do it. You belong to me and i won't forget the times we were together. I am sorry to destroy your life. I regretted for it but i dont regret for it's you that we are taking about. If time and beliefs is the only way that is stopping us from being together than i will wait for you till 25. I promise. Theses few days is enough for me to die over and over again. It's a great mistake and a good lesson learnt. I Love You my LOVE . I really do. God place you in my life because you're the perfect person for me. God choose you because he knew you can influence me much. I respect your decisions for whatever you do as long you're happy and cheerful. I am not fit of your steadfast love anymore. I won't interfere with your happy life with your freedom and happiness as long as you're happy with your decision. I've never regrete for being with you these few months and you've never been a waste of time to me. I said all theses at the point where i am angry. Well guess i am just plain stupid and useless not to treasure you. I really can't bear to let go but for the sake of your happiness, i will and i will leave your life. Just forget about me and these months. I guess this is the end of everything. All i ask from God now is to give you peace and rest when you're in need. Take care of yourself okayy ? Don't bother about me anymore. I won't ask you to give up your happiness now for me. No matter what i do or what am i going to do doesn't concern about you anymore. You've said things clear when you decided to leave me. I am really a fool in love. I am sorry for those tears that i've made you cry. I am not gonnna find someone who's the same with you and nobody can replace the one and only Mrs Peh which is you my dear. I may get into relationship but i wont be able to find someone whom i will love anymore because you're the only person whom had captured my heart and my love. I love you and i hope that there will be a chance for us to reconcile once more. Take care.

A Fool.

Its 12.29 am now and i am preparing my final words for you my love. Yes i am lying to you that i am preparing for my Chingay 2011 but it's not . I believe that this shall by my last post on this blog and it shall be a memory to you. Please remember me once in awhile because i really tried my best in this relationship. i know i had done many foolish things like begging you and playing reverse psychology on you. i really regretted for my actions, i really do. Please forgive me and that is my way of letting everything go. Here is what i decided to leave for you. Hope you see this blog post for you.

Happy 10 Month Anniversary . I hope that you had enjoy our last anniversary together. I knew you would because it's our last. I know that nothing i say or do will let you change your mind but i just wanna tell you how i felt all these while. I am very sorry for everything for everything i had done to you, all these pains and sufferings i had inflicted you with. i regretted for treating you so badly last few months and i really hope that one day, just one day you could forgive me and allow me to salvage everything i had done wrong. I am terribly sorry. Everything, i promise you that you hated most about me will be changed because i love you. You and i know that we could not live without each other but why do you want us to be a past. We can always start anew but i know it is too late for anything now. Do you remember that you had question me about what will i do if you die one day ? My answer is simple, i will die with you too. This shows how important you are in my life. God placed you in my life because you are the perfect one for me. God dont give people what they wanted but rather God gives what is perfect for people and you are the perfect person for me. I have lost everything, my smiles, my happiness, my cool and my life. Please forgive me for everything okay ?
Find a guy who gives in to you in everything, much better than me, who treasures you more than me, loves your more than me. Find someone who has the same status as you. Find somebody who wont allow you to suffer in anything at all because this shows how much he cares and loves you. Promise me that you will feel happy when i am gone in your life okay ? No matter what you do, give your best okay ? Remember to love and overview each other flaws as a lasting relationship is all about loving and overviewing each other flaws. Forgive each other more. I dont think i will be contacting you anymore and i won't appear in your life again . Never, not again. Think of me once in awhile okay ? I doubt that wont happen anyway . I know whatever i had done can't change anything. Begging has never been in my grammar at all but for you everything change because you are someone speacial. Please forgive me for my foolishness and my way of letting everything go. I had died twice, first it was few years back when you said you would leave me, second was the time when i took an overdose and today which is 081010 was my third. This is the only way that i can forget about everything.

I wish you the best in everything.
Take care, I love you.

Xing Wei
081209 - 081010.

Met my cute little monster after my school .
Stayed at home at home for the time to pass .
Went bedok interchange and eat .
Went RS hoping that we coul see fireworks but sadly on on Friday and Saturday .
Sightseeing like we've never been there before .
Saw humongous CHOCOLATE , immma serious ; it's HUGE . -.- it's does reminds me of Charlie And The Chocolate Factory .
Saw POPCORNS ! wooots ((: caramel , butterscotch , cheese , GIMME GIMME GIMME ! I wan those poppies ! RAWR .
Cam-whore like some typical person would .
Went imbiah station and I don't know where but there's sand , sea , sweat -.-
headed to the sands to admire the views of the sea but all we could see are lights , tiny little lights at construction sites . PRETTY .
Hooooooome by feeder bus ((:

Happy N9NEsary my HONEYBUNNYMUCCHIKINS.
080910 ((:

My back is aching again !

The show is terrible -.-

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